I have felt a little panicked recently about the cost of our adoption. I woke up thinking, what if we don’t have it? What happens then? Seriously, the most intimidating part of this journey is looking at the fee schedule and thinking, Dear Lord, how are we going to be able to make that next payment? I knew going into this process, this would be my greatest challenge. Not the mountain of paperwork. Not the notarizations. Not even the wait. It really comes down to the cost: Do I have the faith to believe that my God will provide?
We’re about $2,000 shy of our next goal. Honestly, that’s incredible. If I were just to concentrate on how much He’s provided for us since we started talking about adoption, I would be in awe. Now we’re only $2,000 shy of our next goal. That should seem like a lot of money to me – and it still is, no doubt – but given that God has provided more than $9,000…it’s doesn’t feel so scary.
As I’ve been doing fundraising research (events and grants), I was encouraged when I came across a video that showed God’s provision down to the penny. It’s a testimony to God’s awesome ability to provide for His children, to fund what He has called them to.
Today, I’m dwelling on Psalm 121. God is our helper and will carry us through, down to the last penny we need for this adoption.
1 I will lift up my eyes to the mountains;
From where shall my help come?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not allow your foot to slip;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, He who keeps Israel
Will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade on your right hand.
6 The sun will not smite you by day,
Nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will protect you from all evil;
He will keep your soul.
8 The LORD will guard your going out and your coming in
From this time forth and forever.